Jitters!!!

[tigira]

Anyone who has ever done stage performance or presentation of some sort knows this feeling….it’s the “opening night jitters.” The feeling of butterflies in your stomach – where nothing you do makes you stop the feeling of little shakes (even though to the world you’re as steady as you could be). You get the feeling that if people could see the real you, they’d see knocking knees and nail biting….(ok for some of us, the nail biting doesn’t depend on this…but that’s for another time).

In some ways I get the feeling of “stepping off the cliff” – like The Fool. But in others, I know that I am doing the right thing. Of course, in any change in your life, there is an issue of “the unknown.” It’s just that, sometimes, I have managed to know at least in some ways what the unknown is – this is not one of those times. I know that I have to take this step – I know that now is the time. I do not know what lies on the other side. I do not know how this is going to affect all the other areas of my life that I have kept so nicely compartmentalized until now.

So – the closer I get to Friday, the more I get these “jitters.” But, in this case – there’s no tech rehearsal, no dress rehearsal, no stage manager to correct my finer points. This is up to the deities – and they’ll tell me in their own way – later, probably. I have not been on any of the committees to put this together – it’s all in others’ hands. I am accustomed to having a hand in planning. Now I must trust those around me to plan. I know they can – they did so before I was around.

So tonight is my last full moon as a dedicant. And it’s just jitters, I say!

Comments

[lokiswings.livejournal.com]

I'm sure it'll go fine.

I just found your journal today. I never use the veryne one.

*hugs*

[tigira.livejournal.com]

Thanks! :) *hug*

We miss you around here, you know...

[lokiswings.livejournal.com]

I know...I miss everyone too. Any idea if the BPA us planning on doing any rituals any time soon? The one thing that sucks about being out here is the lack of pagan activities. Autumn is always my witchiest season, so I especially miss my witchies.

[tigira.livejournal.com]

The BPA hasn't been doing rituals lately. Tonight is HUB's Mabon, and Breed's Forest is doing that one. Other than that, it's been pretty low key. Jeremy and Juniper are restarting energy group, but with a healing focus. Bob still has the ritual magick group, now meeting at his house. PNO still happens. There's a pagan discussion group on Wednesdays (I know, it keeps shifting). But that's about it. Not eve a potluck...well, except Bob's pool party.